I can't find herrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

13% of the season is over.

I can play tomorrow! I don't think anyone could possibly understand how happy that makes me.
Except Stacie. I want her to get back soon, I can't imagine how she feels.

I have a crap load of homework due tomorrow and I don't know how I'm going to get it done. But once I do, I'll sleep like a freaking baby. Can't waitttttt.

the last show is tonight, you better all be there.
As crazy as the entire thing is, I'm going to miss it like hell. I'll miss looking across at Grace or Kelsie and mouthing all of the lines, singing all the songs, doing all of the dances....craziness. Last night, I slept for 11 hours, it was amazing. First night this week, its been school, basketball, play, homework, get to bed at one *maybe*. Oh, and we got two late passes to orchestra for being in pit, which is so awesome. I love Barre and Keller, they're the bestests.

I am currently snuggled in my couch with my laptop, twilight book, the food network on tv, and martha stewarts christmas magazine at my side. I cannot wait for Christmas. Actually, thats a lie, I don't want Christmas to ever come because I love the season of Christmas. Delilah was playing Christmas music on the radio last night. Hey Patrick Dempsey is the voice on a state farm commercial! AND THERE IS A CHRISTMAS COMMERCIAL RIGHT AFTER IT. Sorry, I'm easily distracted....

We had our first basketball game last night! It was against Mattanawcook who we beat in the Eastern Maine Finals last year, we won 56-24. Enough said.

I am never home except to sleep at night. It is so crazy it's fun.
I have to catch up with all of my shows (House, Gossip, OTH) at night, which I'm doing now. I just watched OTH which was AMAZING because it started out with Lucas watching part of Casablanca (my all time favorite movie EVER) now I have a Thanksgiving episode of Gossip which makes me SO happy because not only am I in love with the show, but THANKSGIVING IS IN A WEEK AND 2 DAYS!! Which means Christmas is THAT much closer. I cannot wait.

Oh-I made varsity, woot woot.

hell week has started
I love Lucas Scott
basketball starts monday
life is good

I've seen HSM3 twice
I am completely addicted to one tree hill
I might be falling
for real

tonight was a really good night
I went to the bonfire for a bit, and then to High School Musical 3 with Jordan, Taylor and Kayla. It was the best thing ever. We started a slow clap at the end and every single person in the theater joined. And then on our way out, taylor 'pelvic thrusted' some random woman in the theater. no joke. we died laughing the entire way out, and then people saw us laughing and looked at us awkwardly, which made us laugh even more. and then taylor hit her something on something, and then at that point I was actually in pain from all the laughter. it was just good to get my mind off of everything.

we are going back next friday

"
What if I said something like 'I don't know how to say this, but I might
be falling for you. And I know you don't think of me that way, I don't
know if you ever could. The scariest thing is that losing you as a
friend, but I just can't stop thinking about you.'

That could work. Now if you just say this to whoever it is you're
talking abou-

I just did.

"

This weird. This time it's different from the last two years, it has a warm, comfy feeling. I never thought he could make me feel this way....it's different.

and I'm loving every minute of it

So, homecoming was a complete bust. Going stag is always fun, because it doesn't matter, everyone is still dancing, however, the music blew, the decorations were crappy and the entire atmosphere screamed shitty. I feel bad for the freshmen, they probably think all dances are that bad. BUT before was a lot of fun, the whole day. With Grace, getting my hair done, and 2 unnecessary quesadillas, then the football game. After was amazing. It wasn't overwhelmingly exciting, but we were all just chill and shot the shit while watching the red sox, oh, and spilled LOTS of beverages.

Back to reality tomorrow.
Classes are cool, grades are even better.

Life is good.

All of a sudden, I feel the need to prove myself.
What is that? Since when do I ever feel the need to prove anything to anyone? I don't understand it.
Whatever.

I missed school thursday and now have a ton of work to make up (mostly tests or quizzes....awesome) And then there is everything else, I mean, since when is homecoming in less than two weeks? Weird....

But on the brightside, homecoming is in less than two weeks!! haha. And school is going well.

MY BROTHER PASSED THE BAR EXAM

ran after school, for like .2 seconds and cramped up
then I shot at the gym-and sucked
and now I understand  0 homework

but the soccer game was pretty fun
for a little bit
Tricia, Grace, Libby and I all decided (well, I explained to them) that happy sad is sadder than sad happy because sad is describing the type of happy and happy is describing the type of sad, therefor if you are in a happy sad mood, you are in a sad mood, but it is a happy kind of sad, where the second word takes the greater value of the two, (unlike red orange and orange red where red orange is more red than orange)

I hope this gets better, because I can't take much more of this.

Went to a call night last night for the Maine Democratic Party. It was kind of fun, I felt like I was doing something, since I can't vote, I want to help some how. Next week I'm bringing cookies.

I'm going down to visit Tracy tomorrow because Forever 21 opens in the mall!! I cannot wait.

so, I might be warming up to the game of soccer, because the game to day was obscene. If there was ever a time for me to be slightly interested in soccer, it was today. For those of you who didn't go, it was getting really rough, and then all of a sudden I look down the field and there is a kid from Hamden body slamming David Cook into the ground, their goalie ran out to pull them away. And then the refs started yellow carding people left and right. It was all around crazy.

After I went to buen with kels and libs, grace waited on us, fun times. She gave us the huge booth that is supposed to seat, like, 20 people, and we were just chillen at the end.

Pitt starts tomorrow....that will be....interesting?

I haven't been this happy in a while. Just had my first chem test and I feel really good about it. No voy amentir, I was pretty damn nervous about it, but I feel like I should get 90-98ish. I don't even feel bad about having half a loaf of raspberry bread (sounds healthy with the whole 'raspberry' ordeal, not the case, its like pound cake with 2 tiny rasberries) and four cousa. I also had the best tennis lesson I've ever had according to Dan. So today is just an all around awesome day all because of the test!!

AP Gov is a lot different than I anticipated. I was excited because it is the law part of government that I am interested, like the interpretation of the constitution and what not, not the politics, but we seem to be focusing more on the politics. I felt really out of place because I had no idea about anything, then we had to take these quizzes to tell us which party we most closely allign ourselves with, and I even felt like I didn't know enough to answer some of those, but then after a little bit of research, I feel a lot more comfortable, and my results were exactly as I predicted. When it comes to economics, I'm more conservative, but on the social scale, I'm more liberal. My dad says I have "a democratic heart and a republican mind." which I agree with.

Oh-I watch One Tree Hill- Q DIED!!!! I cannot believe it, I am royally pissed off. I actually cried. And then I was really scared because of the dead body behind the counter. And so the premier season continues....I can't wait for Grey's!! (I'm very sad I don't get to watch it with Dana though!!)

I went to see the Georgia O'Keeffe exhibition today with my mom at the Portland Museum of Art. It was amazing. And not in an "I'm trying to be profound and act like art is so complex to truly understand therefore I am holier than thou." way, but in a 'wow, there was so much to her work that I didn't know/understand before." way. I really wanted to go first and foremost because Ms.Sherbondy (my 3rd grade teacher) loved art and especially O'Keeffe and was my first real introduction to art of any sort, she passed away a few years ago and I don't know why, but I felt really compelled to go because of that. I had expected to see so many of her flower paintings, but there weren't any. There were a few paintings of her house in New Mexico and a lot of abstract paintings. There was a whole section on work that connected her and Andy Warhol, and there was actually one of Warhol's pieces, which I really loved. There was a short movie (15 mins) about her life and her paintings and it was really interesting, a lot of her work was an expression of her sensuality (it is incredibly shocking that I didn't start bursting out into laughter, but it was really beautiful). There was something about her in the photos that her husband had taken that made her look really beautiful. She wasn't overtly gorgeous, but she had a very soft look to her. And he did a whole album of photos on her hands, and it reminded me of in Titanic when Jack was in love with the one legged french prostitute's hands....haha

ANYWAY....I got a lot of work done with tracy today. Studying with her is aways fun. I love my sister. She is the bestestttttt.

so, I'm pretty sure I'm going to like this year  a lot. I was a little hesitant at first, but I like all of my classes and there isn't a single day where I dread going to school. Then again, it's only the first week....we'll see. Grace talked to me about this SAT thing on October 4th, so I am signing up to take that, just to see where I am and what not.

Gossip Girl premier was amazing. I cannot wait for Grey's Anatomy!! Since Dana sent me the promo I have been watching it over and over again and let me tell you, it's pretty intense.

The U.S. Open has been pretty good, my favorites on the mens side have all made it to the semis (except even though I'm a HUGE Djokovic fan, I really wanted Andy to win, it would have been nice to see him in the finals, plus after his press confrence I think I might be turning over to his side....) however, since Sharapova isn't in it (shoulder injury)  the women haven't been that entertaining to watch. I think I'm with Safina, but who knows....

shit, I school starts in an hourrrr